Remembering . . . .

Thomas has been on my mind a lot lately . . . We are coming up on a year that he has been gone . . . My heart still aches for him . . . And I miss him terribly, I think I always will . . . Always and forever . . . But you know what I have been thinking about lately . . .

He is happy . . . he was tired . . . HE was ready to go . . . His body was worn out, he is at peace now . . . Its those he left behind that struggle . . . Me in particular.

He has been giving me a lot of signs lately that he is with me . . . watching over me . . . And I like that . . . I like knowing that I have my own angel . . .

He would have said to me a year ago, "this is a good day to die." "Dying isn't an ending." "I love you." Always "I love you." I still feel those words . . . I still feel him in my heart . . . Watching out for me, and those I love.

Another moment where I stumble upon a Thomas-ness . . . was this morning, I was looking for a video of a Friend from High school and this video came up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gu9-5SS8V8M&feature=channel (please watch it.)

Here are the words to the song . . .

"If I Die Young"If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a, bed of roses Sink me in the river, at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh, uh oh Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby The sharp knife of a short life, well I've had, just enough time If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a, bed of roses Sink me in the river, at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song The sharp knife of a short life, well I've had, just enough time And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've Never known the lovin' of a man But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a Boy here in town says he'll, love my forever Who would have thought forever could be severed by The sharp knife of a short life, well I've had, just enough time So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls What I never did is done A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar They're worth so much more after I'm a goner And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin' Funny when your dead how people start listenin' If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a, bed of roses Sink me in the river, at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh (uh, oh)The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)Go with peace and love Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh The sharp knife of a short life, well I've had, just enough time So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls."

Now you tell me, is Thomas trying to tell me something??? I had never even heard of this song before this morning.

Surprisingly, No tears this morning, just wonderful thoughts and memories.