What's he trying to tell me

So yesterday was a VERY strange psychic day for me . . . they don't happen often but when they do they really hit me hard.

It started off with the dream (see previous post) which left me happy to have gotten to spend a little time with my sweet boy.

Then on the way to work, I had a new book on CD that I had just opened up and turned on to play. And one of the main characters in it is THOMAS . . . ok. . . strange coincidence??? Right?

Then I get in to the store and I turn on the radio and start working on the computers, pulling out my orders and what not . . . and I realize that on the radio is the Psychic John Edward . . . he is talking to people in Colorado and doing readings for them. I listen as its super interesting.

He gets a call from a lady and she is wanting to know if her loved one is all right now. He says, "I have a Thomas coming through." she says, "I don't know a Thomas." He keeps going on that he knows it's a Thomas coming through . . . She keeps telling him that she doesn't know a Thomas. He says, "He's a young man, and had like . . . cancer or something." She says "I don't know a Thomas." then he says, "Well he just wants me to let you know that he is All right." By this time I'm crying because I feel it was my Thomas letting me know he is here and with me!!! Oh my God!!!

I freaked out . . . panicked that he was trying to tell me something bad was happening, but then realized with a little help, that Thomas wouldn't come to tell me bad things . . .

Then later in the evening, Tim and I were watching TV and there was an actor I wanted to look up to see what else he had been in . . . and the first thing that pops up on IMDB is the actors birthday . . . NOVEMBER 24 . . . that's the day Thomas Died!

So it was a super weird day . . . I wonder what Thomas is trying to tell me.

I didn't want to wake up

So I'm dropping someone off somewhere . . . and I'm out and about in my jammies.

And suddenly Thomas is beside me. I'm SO happy to see him him. I hug him and love on him, and hold his arm as we are walking.

I say to him, "So you really didn't die!?!?!?! I knew they were lying to me. Why didn't you call me?"

"I don't have a cell phone." He says softly.

"Lets go buy you one so that you can always contact me."

"I don't need one." He shakes his head as we continue walking.

"So you are going to stay here with me???"

"Always."

"I'm so happy!!! But I gotta pee (I think I had to pee in real life)." So I run in to this bathroom and it's like church had just let out and all the stalls are full . . . and there are lines everywhere, there are a lot of stalls . . . but so many more people. All of them with little kids, and grand kids.

I finally get to the front of the line and all of a sudden my mom walks in and walks right by me and cuts in line. I go to retrieve my mom so that the crazy women don't beat her up since she cut in line, all the time I'm thinking I just want to get back to my Thomas. That I hate being away from him . . . And I loose my place in line . . .

Then I woke up . . . I turn my alarm off and pray that I can get back in to my dream so I can see Thomas some more . . . But I couldn't. I didn't wan to wake up.

A heavy heart

I haven't figured out why the diagnosis on my foot has hit me so hard . . . I have known for some time that there is something seriously wrong with my foot. But to "know" how bad it really is has thrown me for a loop.

Two partial tears?!?!?!

I didn't know it was going to be that bad . . .

So now to the specialist.

I think the thing that troubles me is that with it only being partial tears, they are probably going to just keep me in the boot, no surgery . . . which I guess is both good and bad . . . surgery sucks, but to have to be in the boot through the winter and potentially another boot to sleep in has made my heart very heavy . . . To me that is NOT a fix . . . that is torture . . .

Back from the doc

Can you say it with me???? UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH I have a Grade 2 ATFL tear in my ankle~ Here is the discription~ Ligamentous injuries of the ankle are common among athletes. Inversion injuries of the ankle account for 40% of all athletic injuries. The anterior talofibular ligament (ATFL) and the calcaneofibular ligament (CFL) are sequentially the most commonly injured ligaments when a plantar-flexed foot is forcefully inverted. .Ligamentous injuries of the ankle are classified into the following 3 categories, depending on the extent of damage to the ligaments:
.Grade II is a partial tear. Moderate pain and tenderness is present. Mild to moderate joint instability may be present. AND~~~ I have partially ripped My Achillies Tendon, it isn't all the way off either . . . So . . . that's whats going on with me.
I am waiting on insurence to approve the specialist . . . and hopefully I will be able to get in with him in the next few days . . .
The doc today said to me, "Well, at least its not all in your mind." UGH UGH UGH!

MRI results

Today!!! I'm excited to finally know something about my stupid foot!

I'll let you know what I find out as soon as I know.

Lets see . . . .

Super fast update on "Things"

~ No one should have boobie issues!! NO ONE!!! (Especially not my people) feel your boobies frequently

~ No one (Especially me) should have foot issues

~ MRI results still pending, should hopefully know on the 27th (I hate to wait)

~ I have a new friend, she is fantastic and spoiled me rotten with wonderful scrapbook treats!

~ Kennedy is one of my most favorite people on the planet! and she loves me so much, almost as much as I love her.

~ If someone sends you a gift , you should call or text or email or snail mail a thank you! Rudeness is not tolerated in Cheriland!

~ people should not do drugs, and if they do they should not have children

~ the stomach flu sucks

~ Birthdays are wonderful . . . (mine is coming soon) don't be upset that you are getting older, be happy you are getting older, the other alternative is that you could be dead and not aging anymore . . . that would suck! Be happy! I love my birthday!

~ home made noodles ARE supposed to be chewy (I didn't know that)

~ Pink is a happy color!

~ sparkly things are beautiful and very distracting!

~ I am soooooo ready to decorate for Christmas , but have been "Trying" to wait till AFTER Halloween this year! Last year I was handing out Halloween candy while the Christmas trees were already up and lit in the house!

~ humm . . . I had something else I was going to tell you but now I've forgotten . . .

~ Oh, I have leaky brain!

Someday this fella is going to be such a good Daddy! he's already a wonderful uncle!!!